A review by Jenni:
What I love about this episode:
Well, I love the concept that not everything is perfect
after angels leave their assignments. For a long time I've
been drawn to Rilke's "Every angel is terrifying." And I
think this episode kinda hits on a lil bit of why. They open
the door just enough to something better, something superb and
leave us longing for what and who is there that we can't
I also thought it was interesting how Monica said assignments
remember their experience of angels but not necessarily the
angels. That explains some episodes where the angels run
back into old assignments who don't recollect them or else can't
place them. Plus, it does make sense. I can remember
some profound experiences in my own life but can't necessarily
call to mind some of the others who were part of it.
I actually think it makes a lot of sense that it doesn't
necessarily become easier when one learns God is real. As
Tess said, it can give the person someone to blame. But I
think it goes beyond that. If something terrible happened to
me, I would likely be miserable for a while either way. But
in some ways it would be easier to believe it was just bad luck,
fate, or chance. But to believe in an all powerful God... to
love Him even... and then have to ponder why He allowed you to
feel so much pain... that's tough. And I wish this episode
woulda pursued this more and let some of the hackneyed aspects of
the plot fall by the wayside.
I like Emma. She's my kinda angel! She could probly
help me find a dust-fighting product that would really work!
It's just too bad I'm watching this episode during one of my more
OCD modes so it fed right into that. And she can't
drive. Like me. I just wish the character woulda been
more substantive. She actually didn't interact with Audrey
I love how Emma assures Audrey she'll never do crossword puzzles
until after she's finished with the paper. Nice! And
it's the kinda quirky line I like.
I like that Andrew was surprised when he heard Celine phone into
Liz's show. Not sure why. I guess I just like it when
the angels don't know a whole lot and experience the assignment's
twists and turns as they unfold.
"He made you a promise that He would mend your broken heart if you
gave Him all the pieces." I like that quote from Monica to
And I can't decide if Monica's bleeding hand was a nifty object
lesson or just creepy... Since I feel like I've griped
enough below, I'll go with nifty.
The last couple minutes were nice and seemed to fit more with
"Psalm 151" than the rest of the episode. They were simple,
sad, and, yet, peaceful. And in a way it kinda mirrored the
opening of "Psalm" with all the grass and Audrey singing and a
celebration with sadness hanging over it as the angels watched
over the humans.
What I didn't love about
screws up the Stages of Grief. Or maybe it's just all been
updated since this episode was written. But from what I've
read it's generally accepted now that they're more cyclical.
You can go through anger, wind up in depression, and then go back
to anger. It's not a check list where you can say when one
"step" is complete and it's time to move past. Insisting
otherwise can hurt people.
Really this episode just seemed rushed to me with the characters
having to hurry things along so the writers could cram all they
wanted to in. For example, I think it's fairly creepy that
Andrew brings up Liz's lost child so soon after meeting her.
I've never lost a child, of course, but I have remained silent
about sad things in my life for years... not even telling family
and close friends. So it's just weird to me and something of
a social faux pas if not just rude that Andrew rather casually
bring it up to a near stranger.
Where the heck are Celine's parents?!? Sadly, I can find it
believable that a child would take on huge responsibilities cause
of alcoholism. You hear stories of kids basically raising
their own siblings due to drinking or drugs. But this
scenario is different. It seems so unrealistic to me that
parents who we're apparently supposed to think fit would allow
their child to spend countless hours caring for a mean
drunk. It's so sad and shows how unready Celine is to have
so much on her plate when she tells Audrey she's an alcoholic and
"probably has a drinking problem, too." That poor girl
couldn't fully understand the situation and was definitely over
her head... all with her parents oblivious.
I just found some of the scenes grating. Especially the one
where Monica and Audrey are in the bar. The parrot-like
nature of the conversation drove me bonkers. And, again, I'm
in major cleaning mode so Monica continuously pouring that drink
all over just distracted me. I
didn't get it.
Honestly, this episode kinda beats up "Psalm 151" a bit for
me. I wish they'd just left Audrey and Co. alone. This
one doesn't work for me. It just seems needlessly
complicated what with Audrey's kidnapping and the radio ploy, etc.
Poor Tess gets banished for virtually the entire episode!
Although I haven't yet watched the CBS version so maybe THC just
cut her scenes. ETA: Yep, THC cut her biggest scene out.
When Tess says that only God can understand the pain of
losing a child... is that a vague reference to Jesus? Or did
she just mean all of us as His children? Monica's bloodied
hand kinda made me go there...
Okay, so what exactly where those dreams of Audrey's? How
much was her and how much God? Cause Tess made it seem like
Monica was actually going somewhere and Monica does later say it
was her in the dreams. Yet, in the dreams Monica says she's
not there. Further... they were so freaking trippy! If
God was creating them... why make them so freaky weird?
Unless maybe God was creating them but through the filter of
Audrey's alcohol soaked consciousness they just came out
trippy? No clue. But they kinda reminded me of the
coloring on Pushing Daisies
which I miss...
Audrey remembering Liz's song, at Monica's prompting, made me
think about a question I sometimes ponder: exactly how much do we
have stored away in our brain? Is every moment of my life
somewhere in mine, I just can't access it?
that made me feel swoony:
This section really needs to be renamed "Parts that made me feel
swoony/sappy." Cause, honestly, I wasn't swoony much in
this. But sappy... a lil. First, I'll admit that on
one level I am a lil perturbed when the angels think they can
speak about something like the loss of a child or lover.
They can't. So a part of me thinks Audrey was justified in
telling Andrew to come back when he's lost a child. On the
other hand... it makes me feel bad for him. True, Andrew
can't lose a child. But he also can't have one. Not
even for the few years Audrey had Petey. Or,
at least, it's highly unlikely. Kelly in Season 9 seemed
like a rare, rare exception. Anyhow, Andrew just looks
really sad and sympathetic after that and I wanna hug him.
And then go adopt a baby.
If Andrew still wants to do a radio series on addiction, I have an
idea for a topic. :-) It would be really
ironic... AOD Addiction.
Music: "Testify to
Love" from "Psalm 151" plays, naturally, over the "Psalm 151"
flashbacks at the beginning. "Peggy Sue" is playing when
Audrey goes to the bar. Finally, the Judds sing "That's What
Makes You Strong" at the end. In a cut scene, a country song
can also be heard at the bar. All I could make out was a
male voice singing "I see you runnin'."
Turns out Audrey lives in IL. Nice bit of trivia. I
wish I'd caught the town. Sounded like Valentine once but
then Pallantine or something another time. ETA: It's
Palatine. You can see it clearly on the moving van in a cut
Strangely, this episode makes me think I want to be
cremated. I don't want anyone to ever feel bad about leaving
my grave. Of course, I really don't want to be on anyone's
Scenes Hallmark cut:
-After the scene of Emma and Celine talking about cleaning and
Petey, Audrey comes down the stairs. She surveys the house
which is already looking much nicer. She sees Fluffy's cage,
now donning a ribbon, and tells him she had a dream about
him. Then she goes to the fridge where she hears Emma
humming while washing windows. Audrey asks the angel what
she's doing and Emma tells her she's spring cleaning cause it
makes you strong. That's when Audrey starts working on
"That's What Makes You Strong" which is where THC starts.
-Okay, there was a cut Tess scene. Celine is walking in
front of her house and you can see a moving van. She notices
Tess sitting on the porch and approaches. Celine tells her
that she hasn't seen her since Petey... Tess tells her she
remembers and asks how she's been. Celine responds with
"Okay, I guess." She tells Tess that she prayed for angels
and hopes she'll do. Then she confides that her family is
moving to TX. Tess assures her that TX is a very nice
place. But Celine explains about her concern for
Audrey. Tess asks if she's told her about the move and the
girl answers no. Celine goes on to tell Tess about Emma and
Tess explains that she knows Emma... and that she's an
angel. Then Tess says "And so am I" and lights up.
This completely explains how Celine knew they were angels cause I
could not figure that out at all. Anyhow, Celine thinks this
is very cool. Tess tells her that Audrey does need help and
they're all going to need to work together to get it for
her. Celine's dad then walks by, carrying boxes, and asks
her why she's sitting there all by herself. Celine is much
amused. She tells her dad she's talking to an angel and he
just says "Okay..." Celine and Tess both giggle. Scene
-THC also cut a brief scene of Audrey arriving at the
bar. She looks around and prays for help. Then it goes
to Emma cleaning Audrey's music room which THC has.
Further on down the road...
Well, this isn't my usual routine but I'm watching this on a
Wednesday night while doing computer back-up. I'm just not a
huge fan of this episode so wanted to have "Pandora's Box" to look
forward to this weekend instead.
Monica's outfit in the opening scenes is really cute!
Okay, Andrew says "ya" a lot, apparently. Dunno why I was
having a hard time getting that.
I actually handled Audrey's remark to Andrew about losing a child
pretty well. The first time I watched this episode after
John Dye's death, I had to stop the show and go run around for a
bit after that. Speaking of the stages of grief...
Oh boy... Some things don't change. Earlier in the day
I was ticked at myself for forgetting to pick up the dusting
product I did eventually find that I think works pretty
well. Always with the dusting!
Is it weird that I've never dreamed of talking animals? At
least not that I recall. I've even dreamed I gave birth to
an animal. But he was mute... I wonder if talking
animals is a common dream motif?
I still do not understand... given Celine's father appeared to
know Audrey was an alcoholic... why he let his daughter spend so
much time over there unattended.
The monotone Monica speaks in when echoing Audrey just makes me
want to laugh. I know I shouldn't but "You were stuck at the
bar"... "I was stuck at the bar" just sounds so goofy. Like
I'm watching a hypnotist at a carnival or something. So at
least it doesn't drive me bonkers any more. But I do think
it's just silly.
"God's voice will be heard no matter what... whether you listen is
up to you." That's a really good quote from Monica to
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